Saturday, January 2, 2010

You know that shark music on Jaws….

Doom, doom, doom, doom? That’s what it feels like right now. I just got out the tape measure, the scale and took off my clothes…….oh the horror. It’ scary….

I got a new notebook for all of this. I had it special made at Vista print. It has a beautiful picture of mountains on it with the word’s Julie’s Moments …. Thoughts, prayers and ideas….

First though in there is how in the world did I let myself get this way, second though, it doesn’t matter because this is a “going to be new me” and I will do it, I will work as hard as I can.

But first……..let’s measure.

WOW!!!!! Adding everything up…neck, upper arms, lower arms, bust, below bust, stomach, stupid fat below stomach, butt, hips, thigh and calf…..I am 326.5 inches. That is the number I will use to show you the ups and downs. I can’t share my weight, it’s to darn embarrassing but lets just say, to make my goal I’ve got lots of work to do.

I have a thought running though my head, yep that’s scary a thought!!! What happens if I don’t do it, what happens if I don’t make my goal before Mike’s open house. I’m scared guys, really scared. I know I will work on this, I know I will do my best but will I get defeated if it doesn’t work? Will I flip out and quit because I’m not seeing what I’m hoping. Oh God I hope not. I know this will be an on-going process for a long time but still there’s the hope and dreams that I will look good, Mike will be proud of me, Jim will love me more for less. But mostly because I will be proud of me for doing something I thought was never possible.

Okay on to the exercise… I go….I’ll be back and if I can breath and type at the same time will tell you just how that went. What should I do? I’ll play it be ear today and see. Bye for now.


TheEclecticElement said...

You just need to hang in there and keep doing what your doing because it's very important!
There is no need to be scared-You can only do what you can do and as long as your doing your best, that's all that matters.
Just keep in mind all the positives and focus on outting all those negative thoughts and feelings cause they will cripple you(I know!).

Suburbs of Atlanta said...

I can't believe you added the numbers together after measuring (with a sense of humor added). "This too shall pass". This is a temporary setback ...just focus on today