Well I’m over it and have learned quite a bit from it. Really I honestly thought I was in the right and everyone was against me. Well not against me really, just not in my corner. Well I’m big enough to say I was wrong in more ways then one and after my day off yesterday and a chance to really think about it, talk to my best friend about it and reflect, well I’m a putz. Not a tiny putz either but one that is learning so I’m not a total loss.
Yep, for 14 months I have worked my butt of literally and and it has gone to my head. Not in the bad way such as I’m better then anyone…really the opposite, I’m not as good as anyone. Look at so and so, they have lost blah, blah, blah…..look at so and so, in less then 6 months they lost their 50 lbs, you it took 14 months. Who give a flying monkey how long it took me to lose it, I LOST IT and I need to be proud of that fact and just not worry about that last 10 lbs. Just get over it and do what I’ve been doing and it’ll happen. Kind of a duh really!!!
So now that the PMS part of my period is over and that darn thing is here my mind is back where it’s suppose to be, the body well it’ll follow in another week and then life will be back to normal, for 15 days at at least. I’m getting old (almost 49 you know) so my time rolls around every 18 days now and it messy me up a bit more then it use to but a thing about getting old, maybe it’s working on ending soon. At least in the next few years. Jim says 72 more cycles and then just maybe it’ll be done. This is according to my grandma’s cycles and I seem to mimic my grandma in many ways.
So I am going to try and talk to others not just about my exercise, diet, eating and all. I’m going to try and be normal. There is more to life then just this, though it is still my top priority right now it’s not for everyone else. So I’m going to work hard on that. Yesterday I only talked about my exercise and all, maybe 5 times instead of 50 times. There is daycare, scouts, family, gardening, chickens, lots of other things and I do bet everyone was beyond tired of hearing about it.
Okay so your stuck though, cuz this is my life style change blog. For you there’s that little X in the corner if I’m boring you to death or you’ve heard it before or just one of those days as” why is she sharing that?” I don’t mind because well, this blog is for me, for me to look at and learn. To read back and see what was happening at this time, what was I thinking, what was I feeling and boy was I stupid at times. It’s okay though, I’m human, I’m fairly normal and I’m just me.
I have to share one thing, since I was feeling that way yesterday before I finally got things sorted out, I killed the elliptical. 40 minutes, 4.4 miles from level 2 to 7. 435 calories did and done with. Just my third time on that machine for any length of time.
Okay, it’s Friday, YEAH!!!! It’s sunshiny, 46* and time to head outside for a walk. Daddy and I went yesterday early evening. I’m going to leave you with a couple pictures of what we saw. Take care my friends and God Bless!!